Harden Not Your Heart

Meditating on Psalm 95:

Oh come, let us worship and bow down;
Let us kneel before the Lord our Maker.
For He is our God,
And we are the people of His pasture,
And the sheep of His hand. (Ps. 95:6-7)

He comes to our house, bringing his heavy heart and hauling his heavy burden. We talk, casually at first, as at other times. But I probe him deeper and speak that which has been in my mind for a long time. Which has been in our minds to say, that is, the people who care for him. I am surprised to hear his answer. Yes, he has woes, and no one is helping him except us from time to time that he comes to us.

He has been working for his family solo. His wife had completely given up plans of helping him years ago. We don’t understand why. She’s strong and healthy and with a college degree but she’d rather stay home with their one and only son, who is also healthy and not being homeschooled. It pains us to think that she cannot get herself to help her husband, amid their on-and-off crises, who works really hard unmindful of his own health issues.

And this one thing, more than the financial burden, is what’s really hurting him. I can see it the way his shoulders hang. I feel the heaviness like it was my own. It breaks my heart to see this sight in front of my eyes: my (younger) brother who is big and tall but now displays this raw vulnerability.

I start to express again how much I care. I am careful not to start crying, but my voice breaks… And he starts crying. He sobs uncontrollably, his strong, burdened shoulders shake.

How can a big sister comfort a hurting, overburdened and confused brother? How can we ease away the burden and soothe all heartaches in the world so that there is only peace and happiness? Oh, how we want to do all that and more! How I want to wipe away all this anguish that I see before my eyes. We want problems solved, families attaining prosperity, peace, and joy.

But I cannot do it; I can only point him to the One who can, and more.

The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. (John 10:10)

I had attempted to tell him about Him a few times before. My husband did, too. But it had been hard for him to listen. And believe.

Today, if you will hear His voice:
Do not harden your hearts, as in the rebellion.” (vv. 7-8)

But I tell him about Him again today. The Lord Jesus Christ. I implore him to listen to me. I am his Ate that he has always respected and looked up to. I want him to listen to me, with all his heart, mind, and soul, as his big sister and as a humble servant of the Lord.

He nods his head. He says he always listens to me. I impart to him the Gospel. But I am careful lest I am pushing too much and scare him away. I forgot to say that I have been crying all along. When he started to cry, I did freely, too. I tell him about Jesus and how He can help and turn a life around, and I am doing it like I am ready to impart even my soul. I think there is really no other way to win a soul but to willingly give your own, too, in this endeavor.

So being affectionately desirous of you, we were willing to have imparted unto you, not the gospel of God only, but also our own souls, because ye were dear unto us. (1 Thess. 2:8)

After he left, I know there’s a lot of praying to do.

Oh, Lord, let our loved ones receive Thy peace and enable them to enter into Thine rest, that they may find rest from all their miseries and woes. Amen.

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Journey with Jesus,

Comments

  1. Hazel Moon says:

    I pray that the Lord will help him to release his resentment and love his wife for who she is. May her eyes be opened too so that she can contribute to the family in a financial way. Thank you for sharing your heart at “Tell Me a Story.”

  2. Laura says:

    Such a burden, I know. Sometimes we say all we can do is pray…but Oswald Chambers wrote, “Prayer is the greater work.” To petition the throne of heaven is a mighty, powerful act. I have a burden for a loved on like this and I have to keep reminding myself of that!

    Visiting from Michelle’s place. Nice to “meet” you!

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