Walking by Grace

Meditating on Psalm 101.

I will behave wisely in a perfect way.
Oh, when will You come to me?
I will walk within my house with a perfect heart. (Ps. 101:2)

The first year that I was very ill was also my first year in walking with the Lord and grasping what it meant to surrender my life fully to Him. My days were mostly spent soaking in the Word. It was as if I couldn’t get enough of it. I devoured chapter upon chapter, looking for enlightenment, blessing, and ultimately, my physical healing.

I can’t remember now what came first: my study of Psalm 101 or the Holy Spirit’s strong nudging, that I should perfect my walk before the Lord. But what I remember is, I imagined King David walking about his house and “cleaning” his household of anything and anyone that offended, and I wanted to follow his example. I thought then that maybe if I walked within my house with a perfect heart, the Lord will have mercy on me and He will finally heal me.

During that time, there was one thing I had perfected, and that is, to forsake complaining. I resolved to walk within our house never complaining about my state. I can remember vividly – it was an afternoon of pain, discomforts, weakness, and uncertainty about the future all spelling out a miserable mood when my husband walked into the room, we had an altercation just because he didn’t understand how hard and confusing it was, and then walked out without showing the least display of sympathy. It was because he himself was confused and didn’t know how to properly handle our hard trial. But still.

I had hurt all over then – physically, emotionally, spiritually. I was too sick and weak to give in to anger, but hot, scalding tears streamed down my face. I wanted to shout, to hurl things to the wall, anything to express my frustrations and miseries. But I didn’t do any of those. And when I sat on my portable pan to relieve myself, it was then the Holy Spirit talked to me. Forsake complaining in your life. Forsake it all together. The moment of enlightenment felt like a window in heaven was opened and a stream of light penetrated through me. And I felt great relief and lightness!

By the great grace of God, I didn’t frustrate the Holy Spirit’s work in me. Ever since that day, I had hated complaining. It is ugly, unprofitable, and strongly offensive to God.

Thus, I practiced to walk “perfectly” within our house.

But, though I had completely forsaken complaining, I continue to encounter other problems that mess up with my spiritual walk. Most of these problems come from my relationships: my relationship with my husband, my children, and our household staff. I always think that if I was already well and we’ll do away with the maids, then, my heart and mind will be a lot more at peace. But I know that until that happens, I need to learn through my relationship with the people that assist us. God sends us teachers and He may use the maids to do this goal.

He who walks in a perfect way,
He shall serve me.
He who works deceit shall not dwell within my house;
He who tells lies shall not continue in my presence. (vv. 6-7)

But unlike King David who chose only those who are faithful to serve his household, our family receives even those who do not serve the Lord like we do, and we strive to be a light unto them. We had had to encounter all kinds – dishonest, disobedient, without self-discipline, disrespectful, murmurers, the list goes on.

Lately, we had to deal with a maid who lied naturally. She used our landline phone to call her boyfriend in his cell phone and she did it everyday for more than a month. The telephone company started to call us asking if we had received our billing. It turned out that they were alarmed at our telephone bills’ unusual surge, and that we had not received their billing because the maid who was guilty intercepted it. When my husband got a copy of our billing, we were being charged a little less than P10,000 (roughly $240) which was utterly outrageous!

Around the same time, there were missing imported chocolate bars ( and other items) but no one of our two maids would tell the truth. This is what we go through by having maids.

My husband disconnected our telephone line. And when one of the maids came forward to tell the truth, and the guilty one bravely came before us to ask for forgiveness, we forgave her and gave her another chance, but not without much disciplinary discussions.

If King David chose to walk perfectly within his household by eliminating those who work deceit and tell lies to please the Lord, we chose to walk by grace. That is, giving grace to those who have not known the love and mercy of the Lord Jesus Christ, and by doing so, maybe they will come to know Him eventually.

And maybe, a gracious heart is a perfect heart.

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Journey with Jesus,

Comments

  1. Bing Puzon says:

    We share the same sentiments and in the end they are so good in making it come out that we are the bad guys. I guess people have changed. Gone are the good old days wherein we really have good and quality households. It only shows how time has changed. I still keep praying and hoping that one day we can still find someone who has a good heart! You are not alone. Majority i know are in the same boat!

    • RinaPeru says:

      Yes, yes, Bing. Times have really changed in the panorama of domestic servitude. It’s my fervent prayer to do away with maids (or just maintain only one) when I’m already well :).

  2. Beth says:

    “Giving grace to those who have not known the love and mercy of the Lord Jesus Christ, and by doing so, maybe they will come to know Him eventually.” Amen! I’m so happy to find my way here today. I’m so inspired by what you have shared. Thank you. Love your blog. I think I will need to explore!
    Blessings to you. Thank you for your heart.
    Beth

    • RinaPeru says:

      So grateful to the Lord for leading you here, Beth. I pray your visits will be blessed. Thank you for your heartwarming comments. Blessings to you, too!

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