Agonizing Prayer

Meditating on Psalm 102.

Hear my prayer, O Lord,
And let my cry come to You.
Do not hide Your face from me in the day of my trouble;
Incline Your ear to me;
In the day that I call, answer me speedily. (Ps. 102: 1-2)

I’m intimately acquainted with the words of Psalm 102. They were my soul’s cries, agonizing prayers, in the dark times. Times walking through the valley of the shadow of death. In such times, the soul knows it has only its hope in God. There is nowhere to run to, to take cover, but in that secret place of the Most High, and pray, pray, for relief and deliverance.

I know how the spirit groans, uttering prayers only the Spirit of God can comprehend. I know and it was indescribably hard, agonizing. But it is in that place of complete surrender and humility, utter need of and dependence on the Lord God Almighty that we can find Him and find solace to our souls.

In times of sickness and suffering, of fears and depression that threaten to choke and kill, I know of only one place to go to. You may look at the people around you, people who love and care for you, but you know that there is really only One who can help, who can liberate and heal.

For my days are consumed like smoke,
And my bones are burned like a hearth.
My heart is stricken and withered like grass,
So that I forget to eat my bread.
Because of the sound of my groaning
My bones cling to my skin.
I am like a pelican of the wilderness;
I am like an owl of the desert.
I lie awake,
And am like a sparrow alone on the housetop. (vv. 3-7)

In times of great trial, when peace has fled the mind, flesh and bones have lost their strength, and there is only trembling of the heart – run to that secret place. Pour out your heart. Pray like there’s no other thing that needs to be done. Pray until the tears stream down. Pound on heaven’s door. Believe and trust that there is Someone who hears you. And the name of that someone is Jesus. Pray until peace floods your heart. Then you will know that your prayers have been heard and accepted. It is in that place of great need that your faith expands and your knowledge of the Most High grows ever deeper. It is then that your faith becomes pure, untainted of any doubts or reservations.

He shall regard the prayer of the destitute,
And shall not despise their prayer. (v. 17)

There is perfect purification and faith fortification in great trials.

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Journey with Jesus,


  1. kim says:

    What a beautiful blog. Thank you for your inspiration of Psalm 102.

  2. Sometimes in our most desperate hour, we cry out to the Lord and as you say, bang on heavens door. He will always open the door for us. He will always listen, and He will always come through for us, even when we feel like we are dying inside. This post is a beautiful reflection of Psalm 102. Thank you for sharing :) Stopping by from Fellowship Friday!

    • RinaPeru says:

      “He will always listen, and He will always come through for us, even when we feel like we are dying inside. ” ~ I love your beautiful words, Stephanie, and most of all, these tell the truth about God. Thank you! Blessings to you!

  3. What a beautiful meditation to end my day with…thank you.

    • RinaPeru says:

      Giving thanks to our gracious Lord, Anita. And thank you for stopping by. Blessings!

  4. Joanne Viola says:

    A beautiful post! “Believe and trust that there is Someone who hears you.” Yes, our Savior truly does hear us. Each & every time. Thank you for that reminder! I was your neighbor from Playdates With God.

    • RinaPeru says:

      Each of us does need to be reminded, Joanne. Thankful to the Lord that He uses our stories to do so. Blessings!

  5. Sweet words of comfort and encouragement to those dealing with difficult times. I’m always so blessed by your words of hope and trust! Love you, sweet sister!

    • RinaPeru says:

      Maybe the Lord lets us experience such hardships so that, in turn, we would know how to comfort those who also suffer. No trial of faith is then wasted.

  6. Hazel Moon says:

    Here my prayer O’Lord!

  7. Esther Joy says:

    It seems to me the Psalms identify our deepest needs – always one to meet our need!


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