God’s Designs

My beloved husband texted me to thank me for making the banner of one of our Japanese suppliers and inserting it into the slider of our company’s website. (He had previously requested me to please make it so he could show it during the technical seminar our company and suppliers c0-sponsored). Suddenly, a wave of nostalgia washed over me. I imagined the atmosphere in the hotel’s function room as clients gathered to hear the latest in the Cosmetics Industry. A thought came to me, “I should have been the one facilitating the proceedings and serving our clients.” I could almost “inhale” the atmosphere in there. It was part of my world before. And after 10 years of my “early retirement”(?). Strange, how these feelings still haunt me from time to time.

Ten years ago, I stopped doing the work I loved most. I had no other choice. I was very ill. But I had hoped and prayed and expected to be back soon. But days turned to weeks, and weeks turned to months, painful months. And months turned to years. And at the end of four years, the Lord spoke. He has called me and I needed to let go. I had written about this a few times. Copious tears flowed. You grieve for something you loved so much taken from you knowing that it will never be returned because you have made a vow. A vow to the One who created you, called and saved you, wiping out all your sins, and loving you like no one else can.

How do you learn to accept and still be happy for what you have been given in return?

You do because you fear God and you must heed His voice. He holds your life.

You do because you want to honor Him in your life.

You do because His mercy and love and grace compel you to humbly and completely obey.

You do because you want to please Him; you want that He will be delighted in you. You want to be a joy to Him. Because “the joy of the Lord is your strength” (Neh. 8:10).

You humble down and offer constant thanksgiving to the King of kings and Lord of lords who deserves all your praise and love.

You learn to be still in His presence and not fret. You learn to bask in His peace that passes all understanding for it will come to you. Because He that has called you is faithful.

And you will know joy, joy that is true and deep and enduring.

In the evening when my husband arrived from the seminar, he gave me my old client-friends’ best regards. Some have known me way back when I was still a single career girl. They told my husband stories about me, how they had known me. It’s heartwarming to be remembered. Then he told me that at the end of the seminar, he stood on the podium and talked about me. Now, that surprised me! And I asked anxiously, “What did you tell them about me?”

He said he began thus, “I want to talk briefly about the founder…” He proceeded to testify about the goodness of the Lord in my life. Lastly, he presented my work now, the things that are keeping me busy, aside from tending our home. He told them about the four websites I maintain: our company’s, and my three blogs – Minister of Mercy, Our Healing Moments, and Live Joy-Fully!.

I didn’t need this but I thanked him for doing it. It was for the glory of God.

 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jer. 29:11 NIV)

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Journey with Jesus,


  1. Val Young says:

    good post today

  2. It’s an honor that your husband recognizes your value, and does so publicly. You are a blessed woman indeed.

    • RinaPeru says:

      Oh, Lisa, thank you so very much for encouraging me further with the beauty and truth of your words!

  3. Linda Stoll says:

    ah … the letting go, the releasing, the farewell. a door closing … and yet, another one just waits to be opened …

  4. Sharon says:

    Beautiful! We don’t always see and know the impact our walk with God is having on other people’s lives. How awesome it is that your husband shared with so many people the work that God is doing in you.

    • RinaPeru says:

      Yes, Sharon. I believe God wouldn’t let His wondrous works be hidden esp. from the unsaved, but wants us to share them in every opportunity we get.

  5. Hazel Moon says:

    Your husband loves you dearly and he was so kind to speak in your behalf even though you could not be at the meeting. Thank you for sharing at “Tell Me a Story.”

    • RinaPeru says:

      I love hearing that, my dear Hazel, that my husband loves me dearly. I guess I have to embrace this blessing and not dwell on my not being able to work again and be bitter about it.

  6. susan says:

    I am always blessed by your words!

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