Pursuing God

For those who are called to serve, until we begin to understand and appreciate that God’s calling for us is the highest calling, the highest purpose for our lives, we will continue to have feelings of discontent, frustration, and restlessness. As long as we – our sights, thoughts, and affections – remain focused to the ways of the world and to the realization of our own self-ish desires and dreams, there will always be resistance within us, and true peace and happiness will never be achieved.

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There are many who are blessed with a heart that single-mindedly pursues God, as if there’s nothing in this world that could be greater and more meaningful. They are blessed with “spirit eyes” and see beyond this world to the wisdom that lies at its periphery. But I know that there are also some whose spirits are divided between their love for God and love for the world or the self. They serve God but a part of them also longs for the world – to experience it, to succeed in it, to taste and enjoy its offerings. They may not actively pursue the world or their dreams, but their latent affections for these are present within nonetheless. I am kind of in that place.

I had seen someone who fervently served God but when she saw a Christian family with their material blessings, her countenance fell. She was affected by the blessings of others. I wonder, is this another symptom of a divided heart? A heart that desires God and some of the world at the same time?

I am beginning to understand that feelings of envy emanate from a heart that has not fully surrendered to God and His calling. One who has not really set his or her heart to pursue God unrelentingly. I believe that to make life less complicated, peace- and joy-filled, those who are called by the Lord to serve should do it with their whole beings – no misgivings, no reservations, no resistance, no sorrow. Unlike how the prophet Jonah behaved at first. Or Dimas.

A heart that pursues God single-mindedly is first of all grace from above. Grace that bestows wisdom and obedience. Then the self must begin to live a mature spirituality, disciplining all its members not to be entangled with the cares of this world, but to follow God and His Word purposefully. To intentionally live for God and His high calling.

To finally begin to understand that God’s calling is the best thing that could ever happen to a person is to finally receive and embrace one’s freedom, from the world and from one’s selfish desires, and to finally hold on to true joy.

How could it not be the most excellent thing to be used by God for His purposes and plans? Life on earth is just fleeting. Like a vapor. But the life He has promised is eternal, full of all His wonderful blessings one can never begin to imagine. I used to think that I was missing a lot, and had lost a lot, when I had to give up my career. For a long time I grieved for it, thinking that my career was the best thing that ever happened to me. Like my career was my life and happiness. But God has been changing all that.

I love how Apostle Paul grasped it:

I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done. Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ. (Phil. 3:7-8 NLT)

And I will also be wrapping my brain and heart around this. Joyfully.

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Journey with Jesus,


  1. Just found your blog! I’m so glad this world is not our home. My pursuit of God leads me every day in my desire to fully surrender every part of my life to Him. Some days I fail and that makes me sad, but I will not lose heart because His Word tells me in due time I will reap if I do not grow weary. So I keep sowing day by day, hour by hour, and minute by minute.

    Thanks for giving me spiritual food for thought!


    • RinaPeru says:

      This, “So I keep sowing day by day, hour by hour, and minute by minute.” – thank you in return, Laurie, for your words also ministered to me today. Blessings to you!

  2. Victoria says:

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts. You have a very pretty and peaceful website. Very nice. So good to “meet” another Christian blogger.

  3. Erin Stewart says:

    Thank you so much for sharing, Rina! I just found your blog and I’m glad I did. =)