The kids finally got to watch Frozen last Monday afternoon. I had arranged for it, squeezing it into my husband’s busy schedule. They left late in the afternoon as I was settling in for my much-needed rest. When I was finally able to get up, I asked a maid to fix the coffee table in the patio: drape my new Christmas table cloth, place the poinsettia plant (a gift from our elderly neighbor), bring out my two new candle holders (great finds at Dapitan Market), and light the newly-opened apple cinnamon votives. Before I left the room to go to the patio, I started David Neveu’s Christmas CD on my iPod docked in its speaker and upped the volume. I rarely listen to loud music but I wanted the soothing piano music of Mr. Neveu to float into the air and out into the patio.
The maid placed my heavy camera on my lap and I began to set it. I was left alone again but it wasn’t a reason for me to sulk in a corner and let the precious moments I’m given go to waste. I was actually excited as I looked around in the dark garden lighted only by the colorful sinamay balls. Photography is one of the things that makes me happy. The deep-red, velvety leaves of the poinsettia, the delicious scent of the apple cinnamon votives, even the ceramic candleholders with their gilded “Fall leaves” design, the music of carols of long ago evoking Christmas spirit deep in my soul — all these gripped my heart and I couldn’t think of nothing else but praise and gratitude to the Lord who made it all possible.
For it could have been worse. I know that there are people out there who are suffering and going through deep sorrow and I know how hard, how excruciating it could be. That’s why in seasons of respites, I just want to celebrate and rejoice in the Lord. He has made it possible for me to. By His grace, He has made the apostle Paul’s words come alive with meaning in my life:
…I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. (Phil. 4:11-12)
Whether well fed or hungry. Whether I’m filled with joy with the things I can do or craving for healing and strength and deliverance from suffering and being able to do the things that my heart desires — I am learning to be content and grateful.
Not that I have forsaken my deep yearnings. I believe you really cannot let them go. Those longings deep within make hope to spark and faith to become alive and active. When you ache for something, it means you haven’t let go of your great expectations. And you can do that with God. You can wait on the Lord (Ps. 27:14) and put your expectations on Him.
Love never fails. (1 Cor. 13:8)
God is love. (1 John 4:16)
God never fails.
Jesus never fails.
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